I check my pulse like 30 times a day. While I'm eating. While I'm sitting at my desk. While I'm driving. While I write my blog. I have this obsession over my heart health. Probably because I don't take care of myself like I should. My father died of a heart related issue and my mother had a heart attack last year so ever since the thoughts of dying of a heart attack have almost taken over my life. Any type of weird feeling or slight pain, I automatically assume I'm going to die right there of a heart attack. Sometimes I get a little dizzy from sinus pressure... heart attack. It's getting to the point that even when I'm out with friends I secretly check it. There's not really any point in the day where I'm not either actively thinking about it or it's in the back of my mind.
WTF CAN I DO TO MAKE THIS STOP??????????????????????????????
Sorry. I needed to vent.
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