Ugh

I wish someone understood and actually wanted to speak to me about these thoughts I can't shake. I'm an emotional wreck. Is this normal? Is it normal to have all these emotions 2 weeks before such a major surgery? I keep trying to talk myself out of it. No one wants to talk to me about this anymore. I feel I've become a burden. I'm sorry it's all I talk about but this is a huge life changing event I'm about to go through practically alone. I just need to talk. But no one is ever there to listen.

Sometimes

Sometimes I think about all the people alone in this world and wonder how they do it. Sometimes I look at my mother and wonder how she goes on after losing the love of her life. Sometimes I wonder how the elderly woman next door copes with the loss of her dog, her one true companion. Sometimes I wonder how that guy I used to know felt.. Was it just another shot or was it the one he knew would end his life? Sometimes I wonder. I wonder about you & sometimes I wonder about me.